"This book is my secret journal," Nouwen writes. At first, he had no intention of sharing this personal diary of the dark and difficult months when he felt all meaning in his life was missing and all ahead seemed a dark, bottomless abyss. In spite of his inner turmoil, Nouwen recorded the descent into his heart in these 63 journal entries.
Friends persuaded him that sharing his painful soul-searching might help others who also struggle to embrace life with joy.
Throughout his life, Nouwen longed for deeper relationships with others and with God. "Do not hesitate to love and to love deeply," he urges. While your heart may break, he says, you will then have a choice to become bitter or to stand in your pain and become fruitful with God as the spiritual guide of your life. The inner voice is a voice of "love."
About the Author
He was born in the Netherlands in 1932. An ordained priest and gifted teacher, he taught at several universities including Notre Dame, Harvard and Yale. He was a missionary in Peru. He died of a heart attack in 1996.
Murray Bodo, O.F.M. is a Franciscan priest, associate professor, and writer- in-residence at Thomas More College, Crestview Hills, Kentucky. He is the author of A Retreat with Francis and Clare of Assisi; Song of the Sparrow; Clare, A Light in the Garden; Tales of St. Francis; Through the Year with Francis of Assisi; Francis: The Journey and the Dream; and The Almond Tree Speaks: New and Selected Writings, 1974-1994. Father Murray Bodos latest book is Tales of an Endishodi (University of New Mexico Press).